Another weekend is here. Boy does time pass quickly when I am in Kettering. Missed pizza again yesterday. Had an early day but did not make use of my time. We finally got round to finishing and actually sending off the silly poster we still have to do for this ridiculously busy block. Honestly. At this stage we should be focusing on doing as much of the basic simple things like being able to pick up basic signs on examinations/on investigations and being able to do basic procedures for when we become the bottom of the medical chain (house officers). I really do not think it is necessary to make students spend so much time and brainpower on these kinds of research things that we only need to know at reg/cons level. Still, Leicester being Leicester, I am sure they would still insist on grilling us on "no right answer" things like ETHICS while assuming that we will sort out things like what are the 1st steps we would take with a deteriorating patient doing into VF by ourselves/by magic.

Next week we still have to submit our screening programme. Goodness knows how this will benefit us.

I suspect I am potentially autistic. I find it hard to work with people and do not know how to tell people that my way is better. Yesterday when I was doing the poster with Sania I think I annoyed her quite a few times. I do try my best to discuss but I find it so hard to verbalise what I mean to say and it always comes out as something like, "Your idea is stupid. Pick mine. But I cannot explain why. Just pick mine." So finally I kept quiet and edited bits in the privacy of my own laptop and actually managed to express what I had wanted to express verbally. I wish I could have improved it more but I really do not want to appear like an ass. Same thing happened with the brief discussion we had about the screening programme. I got the impression that everyone thought I was being too anal when all we want, really, is just to get it done and over with. Still.. when there is a flaw some geek is going to pick up and question us about, I would rather pre-emt this by being the geek who spots these issues 1st. I think I did succeed in making myself the perfectionist, nit-picking, ocd geek D: