I suspect I feel insecure and inferior and lack confodence, contrary to what i present. I easily feel unwanted or taken for granted by people coz I'm too nice. No I;m not bragging but I reall enjoy being nice. Does that mean I like sucking up? Eww. I also often want to be indespensable and hate to feel unimportant in any corwd, group or organisation. I hate being dictated by people or having to listen to people and when people dun losten to me sometimes coz I'm so nice I'm eay to push around. Yea fine. Everyone doesn;t like that and everyone experiences their fair share of that. But one day I was thinking why sometimes I seem to get depressed for no particularly visible reason. Then I thought, hmmm, I realise I PARTIVULARLY can't stand this kinda feeling. Yea I'm a very proud person I guess... Can;t stand having to feel inferior or unwanted or unimportant and the like, sai. Ok sleepy already. Good night

Realise that was a very random post. But it was a sudden thought. Anyway, during my blog tour, I discovered many peole playing the tag game. Sad. Can't play it coz i only know two people whom i can TAG! and they both have already tried out the game. Ah well no matter. Shall play it by myself.
Write five random and weird things about yourself:
1.) I wanted to be born a boy
2.) I sleepwalk
3.) I get drunk easily and can't stop laughing for 3-5 minutes if i consume alcohol too quickly
4.) I appear cold on the surface but I like to think of childish things and be happy
5.) I often hop on the border of thinking that I'm very clever and thinking that I'm very stupid

Pass it on! Spread the joy!

Next 5 people to TAG!:
yilun
yilun
yilun
yilun
yilun.

Dear me. I really have to find more friends.

Been visiting blogs ( not that i have alot of blogs to visit, seeing as i only have a teaspoon full of friends who have blogs). Different people have different writing styles. I suppose that's how good reading material comes about. When you purely stick to your own style of writing and speaking, you always sound good. When you try to do another style the whole phrasing just sounds stunted coz the individual, though making an effort to present a different style, still can't manage to hide the original style and it ends up a mix of both. Anyway, I just saw some blogs... Mainly, they were descriptions and anecdotes of life, like a normal diary. Some 'talked' to their audience like asked them questions and kinda try to engage them in a blog conversation. Some are really endearing, not laugh-out-loud funny or anything special, but I dunno, kinda brings you into their life so you see things from their perspective and see the person's character through the blog. With everyone trying to be funny, entertaining, attention-grabbing and whatnot, sweet and ordinary may just become unique instead.
Not that I'm against humour. Ebong's blog made me laugh at the monitor again. Luckily I was in my room. But Monster saw me twisting my face in a valiant attempt not to laugh (which did not succeed) and ran over excitedly to see what i was laughing at, only to find it was in english, something she doesn't understand yet. Yea but my point is, it's funny and engaging coz that's her usual style of talking and expressing herself so it sounded very natural..

I HATE all the inconsiderate people of te world. Singaporeans are so not gracious. Fine. I'm generalising. But my daily experience taking the morning and evening transport services has not shown me otherwise as yet. So many of us are such bums when it comes to taking public transport.
1.) Pole Leaners
As far as I'm concerned, the function of the floor-to-ceiling metal poles in buses, mrts and other similar structures are for hand-grip purposes, to prevent unecessary accidents, such as falls, from occuring frequently in the mobile vehicles. Correct me if I'm wrong, but many of my fellow countrymen seem to have a different interpretation of the use of such poles. From what I observe, many seem to see each pole as an individualised height-measurement device for one to lean one's ful body-length on the entire pole to see how much of the pole one has covered. I dunno. Maybe I'm wrong in saying that Singaporeans are inconsiderate. They may just be so considerate that they are merely trying to use the entire length of cloth they don on their bodies to wipe away the fingerprints that passengers have left while holding onto the poles previously.Please,being in close contact with poles will not make you look like one. Leaning on the poles may cause unecessary accidents such as hair-pulling, when people are too polite to tell the pole leaner but just quietly hold on to an available space, at the same time, (un)intentionally grabbing a few strands of the leaner's hair together with the pole, causing all parties to be pissed. Whereas if you treat the pole with respect and use it the way it should functuon, maybe, say, five people can hold on to the pole at the same time and smile at each other during the journey instead of muttering and glaring behind the pole-leaner's back.

2.) MRT floor wipers
Yay! There's now an increase in manpower in SBS! They've hired people (volunteers, no less), to volunteer the butt of their jeans as cloth to wipe the floors of the MRT trains. Unfortunately, these volunteers, while kind enough to wipe away thedirt, shit, bubblegum etc ,which our footwear had been stained with previously and definitely left traces of on the floor, only stay put at the back doors of the MRTs. They don't move around the whole train and wipethe entire floor. Stupid people. Just stand up like everyone else instead of taking up 2 person's worth of floor space and keep your jeans clean(er) at the same time. SBS will NOT pay you for your floor-cleaning services.

3.) Rushing to get off the bus
Especially when the buses and trains are crowded, please wait till the vehicles stop before you push poeple out of the wayto get out at your stop. I dunno, maybe you haven't noticed, but whether you stand at the bus door, ready to get out 5 seconds earlier, or wait till the bus stops at your stop before you walk to the door, you still step out of the vehivle AT THE SAME TIME. If you poush the poor, packed people (who are probably getting off at the smae stop as you as well but are just more patient to wait till the bus stops before they deliberately alter other passenger's centre of gravity) before the bus stops, poeple lose their balance easily and may jolly well fall on each other like freaking dominoes. Buses and MRTs wiggle alot when they are inmotion. No such technoilogy has yet been invented for poeple to wear magnetic footwear on magnetic-floored buses and trains so that we remain stuck on the same spot no matter how the buses swerve and vibrate. Then we will be like Carrefour trolleys stuck oto the Carrefour travellators at Suntec City. Duh. Such technology will never be implemented on public transport, simply because it's not practical AT ALL. So you can stop practising for such an eventuality.

There are so many more. Liek once when this bus was full and I moved as far back as I could, which, unfortunately, was at the alighting door of the bus, this fifty-something year old man stood ready at the door (behind me coz i was blocking the door without choice) 10 seconds before he reached his stop. I was already prepared to step aside and let the alighters get off the bus as soon as the bus halted. But the stupid guy glared at me before the bus had stopped properly and on his way down had to add' "gei3 ren2 jia1 xia4 ma.!" What a bum. Throughout that entire journey from bedok interchange to my house (which is usually 7 minutes away) me and many other innocent passengers were jostled and well-trained for "Look Ma! No Hands!" (like we could really hold our balance perfectly without holding on to anything and weaving our way through to the back like, what, lavagirl, just to let those fifty-something people through). Thanks for the training. So many of us are now well-trained at balancing in case of a possible earthquake in Sunny Singapore.

I love my job! I mean, the working environment and everything is so homely.... the people there are sooo nice... I shan't go into detail now coz a certain monster is waiting for me to sleep (angel, my tenant)... But yea, just wanted to show off. You know, just for the glory of it. I got a good internship as an architect where the people teach us new things and pay us at the same time. Is that cool or what?
But it's not just the pay. I wouldn't be gushing about my internship everyday just because of generous pay (though it is generous). The everything is really just so comfortable, homely and, well, just plain nice.
Many things have happened in the past month. Need to find the proper time to sit down take a deep breath and gather my thoughts. What with so many things to keep me occupied lately (job, schoolwork, research for s paper and many, many more!) , I have yet to find a few non-sleeping hours for myself. That's why recently poeple can just find me staring off into space, lost in my own pensieve of thoughts. It's good to think about life like that every so often. I like to think and daydream. Take my time to analyse life's intelligence, stupidities and to find solutios to daily problems... I shan;t elaborate further, will come back soo if possible to continue about this. I need to organise my thoiughts first... Very rushed now...
Oh shit. Missed project runway adamngain... wah lao...
Tata. For now. And thank you to those who take time to read my entries =D