I blog best when I am at home. And now I am in the library. But oh well.

Been suffering from bouts of insomnia and high-ness followed by fatigue. My other symptoms include reduced concentration and staring off into space. The diagnosis: homesickness. Hm. Should invent a cooler name for it. Homeaemia. Homerrhoea. Familitis.

This year homesick syndrome seems pretty bad. Keep spacing off and emo-ing and finding myself fantasising about what I am going to do and what I am going to eat when I go home. Yesterday after a sluggish me had a valiant attempt in the library I dragged myself home and fell asleep at 7p.m. Then I woke up (properly feeling high and all) thinking that if it was still 10 or 11 o'clock I would start studying since I was so awake. Unfortunatley it was 12 and so it made no sense to start at that time and end at what, 4? So I thought to myself that it was probably more logical to go back to sleep and wake up at 3 or 4 like last year and start then. Surprise surprise. I couldn't go back to sleep. I tossed and turned and almost fell asleep a few times but my body has this irritating mechanism of catching myself whenever I am about to doze off and say 'eh. wat u doing' In the end I think I probabaly fell asleep at 2 or 3 smt. No chance of waking up at 3 or 4 in the morning after that.

I was kept awake thinking of what I was going to do when I went back to Singapore. This was the feeling I was having during the last few days of last year just before I was due to fly home. The feeling of 'haiya going home already. nv sleep oso nvm' Ahhhhh. Cannot believe I still have another bout of revision to go through and clear the next round of exams before I can truly be entitled to such fantasies again. Oh man. Another 3 months to go.